Speaking of Courage

I'm on the fence about Speaking of Courage. I'm not sure if I think Bowker is courageous or cowardly. The story is about how he spent his Fourth of July alone. I think the war tainted his life because he's alone now. I'm pretty sure people don't think of him the same way or look at him the same way. No one understand what the war did to him and no one will ever understand what Vietnam is like unless they go there. So I think just going to fight in Vietnam was courageous because now he'll never be the same and it's changed his life for the worse. The whole chapter makes me sad because I hate the thought of loneliness. To me bearing loneliness is courageous. I would've probably killed myself. With the Kiowa thing I think he's both cowardly and courageous. Cowardly because I feel as though he shouldn't have let go. Maybe he could've tried a little harder or something. But I thing it was courageous because instead of giving up on himself and just throwing his life away he saved himself. His life is terrible some people would just throw in the towel. So yeah. ;)